How to keep on the right track
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 4:58 AM
It was 2 in the afternoon. My teacher's talking about Einstein's principles and here I am listening like a normal student should. So I wonder, what things matter to me? Then suddenly my teacher asks us to share about our convictions. I got a partner and this is what I told her, "every life has its distinct beauty and so humans must value it". This probably is my guiding principle.There are times when I feel like giving up. Let's fact it. We all stumble and fall sometimes. At some point in my life I deeply felt jealousy. Every cousin of mine and even my own brother belongs to a so-called "elite" group in their school. To cut it short, they're effin' smart and fuckin' talented. Because if it, my grandfather always praise them. Never in my life have I experienced my lolo being proud of my achievements even though they're not that major. Jealousy filled my heart. I know that God created smart and talented humans but, I felt like a waste. It also lead me to pressure myself to work more. I remember one time my mom caught me in a middle of a breakdown. She immediately asked what's wrong with me and I really told her about my issues about my cousins. Surprisingly, she cried too. She told me that she noticed my lolo disregarding my capabilities. My dad also knew about this and I remember him saying "pray to God. it will cheer you up" and it did, actually. Now, whenever I encounter my grandfather praising one of my cousins, I'll just smile to myself and in my mind I say "wait till he sees the best me".
This experience taught me to value once uniqueness. Every one of us are talented and every one must be recognized in a good way. The opinion of others about somebody else must not cause jealousy or pressure but rather, this must taken in a positive way for us to work and strive harder. Life is a mystery and so we must decipher it for us to serve our purpose. Remember, we're only given a single life so we must live it to the fullest.
so the whole shit is my formal theme. haha. just wanna post it here cause i can't think of anything to post. this day is just plain normal. nothing out of the ordinary. oh PE day tomorrow. well, good luck to me and my inflexible body. my friend told me that we're going to do gymnastics. gad. that would be a tough challenge for me.
PEACE AND LOVE